doubts

I am starting to lose confidence in deciphering for myself.

Maybe it's because I've always been alone in thoughts and have always been making my own decisions since young. I realized I couldn't do it all by myself and actually felt ashamed when I'm tired and worn out. Because the only thing that has been sustaining me through my past years is my PRIDE in the ability to be independent. That instead of asking for help which I've been no good at all along, I find it easier to do everything by myself as I do not have to adhere to anyone's schedule or risk being rejected.

Over the years, I also realized the hefty consequences I have to pay in being too easy-going sometimes. I am a generous, loving person by nature and I still do not want to change that, however, I've learnt how to be more selective with the company that I keep.






I need to be more humble.

I need my friends.